When your heart is hollow and you don’t feel.
But tears they fall as you speak, you don’t know why, you don’t know how, it just falls down
Words won’t come up when someone asks why. My heart is a bit dead and a little scared inside.
They don’t know why I cry at night, they don’t know why even though I laugh all day, I feel afraid deep inside.
They always think I am the happy cheerful girl who lives in a happy little world
But darling there is something that is so deep and dark that’s within my heart, I can’t seem to tell you that I fear people, I fear making friends, I hate talking to people because I am so scared, what if I say something wrong and make things worse, what if I do things that makes people curse.
Nowadays I cry all day and I cry all night, all the sleepless night, I fight my own mind.
I have no reason to be this depressed but fuck this shit I am somehow so fucking compressed.
The thoughts that must wander are the better goods but I don’t know what’s wrong with my mind it always thinks the worst.
Now friends ask me reasons for why I am so sad but all I can say is I don’t know why but I feel so hollow inside.
Friends, they worry but I have nothing to tell as I don’t know the reason why I fear.
They want to show me light when darkness is all I see.
Can they pull me from this empty room full of demons and doom is all I seem to think.
I want to have someone near me, hold me and say everything is fine, hug me tight and tell me the world is abyss but you can find heaven in people’s dreams, that they can be happy even though life is cursed and all you see is grims.
You will be happy and sad and angry life goes on and so will you.
I want someone to be there just to calm me down.